What is going on? Really!?!?! REALLY!!!
Today I was in my front yard and I heard a woodpecker drilling into a tree close to me. I often watch them in a old tree next door but they are way up high. When I finally saw the bird and it didn’t fly away I wondered if I could feel it through the tree so I put my hand on it and I could but not very much. Then I wondered what it would sound like if I could put my ear up to it. Well the sound thing didn’t work out because the bark of the tree was so uneven. It was cool but what was more awesome to me was that as it was happening I thought to myself “I can’t way to tell G about this!” WOW!!! I have friends that could appreciate this, not nearly as much as me I’m sure but still that they can be excited that I’m excited is so awesome.
I’m feeling like this whole new chapter of my life is opening up this year. That letting go of so many relationships that I have held on to - human and institutions - where really keeping me from stepping with both feet into this chapter of life.
When I talked to G tonight I was right, he was excited for me and the woodpecker experience.
Last week I suggested to my dad that we do something and he said yes but then I said “your doing this for me 100% aren’t you?” and he said yes, but that he was happy to. What an amazing gift. He was willing to do something he had no interest in because it mattered to me. He ended up liking it but it would never be something he would think of doing.
I had a friend drive 180 miles round trip for a glass or two of wine one night when I happened to be in the same state as him.
I had another friend lay down several Ben Franklins to go on a retreat with me!
Another friend showered me with cards from complete strangers for my birthday so that I could experience a level of love I didn’t know I could experience.
What is going on?
Neighbors that do things in the middle of the night for me just because I asked and was in need.
Other neighbors that come to calm down fears of what life will be like on the other side of a possible paralyzing injury.
Clergy that you don’t even belong to “officially” treat you and your family better than most you’ve known well.
What is going on?
What does this all seem to be happening now? What has changed? Has anything changed? Everything has change? Have I changed? How can I not be changed by all of this?