SWF seeking wide open road
Life is happening very quickly these days. I’m exhausted and not sure where to even begin to find a space to rest emotionally.
A few months ago a church in my neighborhood installed labyrinth and I brushed it off thinking no big deal. However, the other day I needed to DO something. I needed to walk, I needed to go somewhere but I couldn’t go far. So I went to the labyrinth.
From the path you can see the water and it was a very windy day and the tide was very high. It was cloudy and cool, well cool for me anyway. There was really no one outside because it was generally miserable.
As I stood at the beginning I bowed to the path before me and started walking very mindfully - heal rolling to toe, now feel the other foot lifting and my weight shifting then move the lifted foot slowly but the leg then gently extending it towards the ground, heal rolling to toe, begin again. THEN there was a curve and I had to navigate that and it hit me after a few times of making the turns that sometimes going slower made turning harder, I was lose my balance or feel unsteady. A turn I would take too quick would have the safe effect.
More than anything it really started annoying me how many damn turns there were and how close together they were. Seemed like when I would find a rhythm walking there was another freaking turn. Then finally I reached the outside of the circle and there before me was a long stretch where all I had to do was walk.
These last 5 weeks have been the tight annoyingly common turns of the labyrinth. I’m tired, I out of balance with so much. Sometimes I’m going so slow I lose my balance and other times I turn to quickly and get dizzy. I am longing for a outside lane of walking/living for a while without any form of a curve. Don’t get me wrong, I love the thought of a roundtrip down the Tail of the Dragon in east Tennessee again but what I long for right now is the view of miles and miles of straight deserted asphalt out my windshield and in the rear view mirror.
